another vacation again last weekend

there was such bad traffic on the interstate that people were just getting out of their cars




tamara: the most beautiful hungarian i know


morning ryan


i braided ryan's sisters hair







Kennedy please talk yourself out of driving 7 hours to Virginia to see Ryan for the THIRD weekend in a row.

Probably I will just go anways. I mean I already packed a bag just in case.

weekend in the country

Even toast is better when you're in love!


Ryan's room.


Sunday morning we watched tv and it was great.


I bought this dress today, but you can't really see it.

I wore that outfit all weekend, also I took a bunch of unnessacary pictures of my weekend outfit. The last one is of my place, Charleston, SC. It's beautiful right? Well I guess that is mostly just a picture of the sky but I do live in a beautiful place. I'll show you one day.

I best thing I did in months is that finally paid my library fines! Because of that the cosmos and karma and the universe smiled on me and I found one hundred great things from the thrfit store! The plan was to take pictures to show you, but I didn't so Sorry. I will tommrow probably. I rented 4 DVDs from the library (The Triplets of Belleville, Pecker, Time Bandits, and Pan's Labyrinth). Then I went to Barnes and Nobles and I bought a few new books (Identity, The Beautiful and the Damned, Atonement, and Hello To All That) just looking at a stack of new books to read has been keeping me sane for the past few days. All in all though this weekend was long and short and lazy and productive and stressfull and serene. I had so many and such big emotions all the time that I could barely take a second to breathe and now it's Sunday night and almost past my bedtime and I'm not anywhere near sleep. The good news is I'm wearing a flower in my hair and it fits my mood perfectly.

honeysuckle rose

toes and shoes


Mary


the bridge opened and i was first in line


honeysuckle rose outfit


My best friend from boarding school showed up here this week. She lives in LA fulltime now, but her boyfriend is on tour with Walking With the Dinosaurs and she came here to visit him. We got to hang out all week for the second time since we both graduated high school and the first time in three years. She is my sister, I mean we grew up together, and seeing her in real life conjured up a love for humanity that I thought I'd lost. People are great, friends are great, I love you!

My Mom says that when I was little I would stop and get off my bike if I saw a patch of honeysuckle by the side of the road. I guess I've always loved them intensely but I didn't remember until now when she brought it up. If I actually think real hard I'm almost sure that's how my favorite color happened, I mean it's yellow because of honeysuckles. Anyways I found a honeysuckle rose shampoo and conditioner at Whole Foods that made my day better. This stuff is incredible I mean it's witchy, it smells exactly like a flawless spring day.

For work I had to go down to the courthouse to make a copy of a motion in a divorce file for my boss and while I was there I realized I could also look at and make copies of my parent's divorce file if I wanted to. So I did. And it was great, I found out some juicy shit but mostly I just can not believe I hadn't thought to do this before.

Today Chelsea and I were walking down the street and some guy asked us if we were sisters. Again. This happens almost every time we hang out and we don't get it.

idyllic backyard paradise

bff self portrait


the perfect hat


saturday night whatevs

My best friend Ashley is in town this weekend and she's coming back here sometime tonight. It will probably be late already when she gets in and she will sit on my bed to have a few hurried and angry cigarettes while she tells me about her night and relays all the communications that have happened between her ex boyfriend which we will then discuss. Tonight I'm secretly staying in again. It's a secret because I haven't told anyone yet and I am expected. I mean there is about a 3% chance I will wait until midnight and then up and go to the birthday party I'm supposed to already be at right now, but really I think I will just eat a bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch and then watch a movie until Ashley gets here.

My boyfriend is being really awesome recently. For example he got me a sewing machine and a perfect hat for no special reason at all just because. Last time we saw each other I went to his cousin's wedding shower and met his family and he told them we were moving to New York together and also as it gets closer to him leaving he is being extra considerate of how I am obviously terrified that he will immediately meet some girl who has better outfits than me and marry her.

I am drunk on spring fever all the time. I smell honeysuckle and hear birds even when I am inside. Let's all go swim in a river and hang out in a forest.

best girl award

book list 2008

A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night time by Mark Haddon
Naked by David Sedaris
Jesus' Son by Denis Johnson
The Road by Cormac McCarthy
The BFG by Roald Dahl
Junky by William S. Burroughs
Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
How We Are Hungry by Dave Eggers
Learning to love you more by Harrell Fletcher and Miranda July
You get so alone at times that just makes sense by Charles Bukowski
This Boy's Life by Tobias Wolff
A Scanner Darkly by Philip K. Dick
No One Belongs Here More Than You by Miranda July
Little Girl Lost by Drew Barrymore
The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway
When You Are Engulfed in Flames by David Sedaris
Tales of Ordinary Madness by Charles Bukowski
Another Bullshit Night in Suck City by Nick Flynn
Candy by Luke Davies
Girl, Interrupted by Susanna Keyson
The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
A Moveable Feast by Ernest Hemingway
Hot Water Music by Charles Bukowski
In Our Time by Ernest Hemingway
What We Talk About When We Talk About Love by Raymond Carver
Cathedral by Raymond Carver
Meditations from a Moveable Chair by Andre Debus, Sr.
The Trouble With Poetry by Billy Collins

So many of these are re-reads but I'm counting them anyway.

i want you here now

do you like my backyard?

I was late to work again this morning and I got in trouble. Kennedy it seems that you are not cut out for an office job but you know it's time to shape up or ship out. I don't know what's wrong with me because the worst part is that I'm trying. There are good things brewing in my future though and also finally my soul and my brain are giving me a break. They are like it's okay, it's okay we'll be fine just get us to New York. Also finally I have a plan to get to New York.

Last night I ditched a friend and instead I read This Boy's Life and went to bed because I am a weirdo. Although she didn't call to yell at me and it was one of the first times we were supposed to hang out and she probably just thinks I am an asshole which is true. Sorry Courtney I am an asshole and a weirdo. I don't like cancelling I just avoid it okay. I only want to hang out with BFFs and eat junk food and watch a movie and read a gossip rag okay.